More Than Enough: A Letter To The Overwhelmed.

You go through life being told that you are not doing enough, that you are failing and that you need to put in more effort. If they only knew that you were already putting in 150% effort every minute of everyday just to stay on top of things. You felt completely misunderstood growing up as you would often say the wrong thing without bad intention, and you would get a feeling of being different to everyone else. 

You stumble through life being psychologically knocked and bumped every day. You have no idea who you are because you have tried so hard not to be the person others have criticised. You mirror other people in order to feel safe and understood and to shield yourself from more criticism. You feel the energy in a room and are highly attuned to the emotions of others around you. You try to attend to these emotions to help reduce any conflict. 

You over extend yourself. You say yes to things when you really want to say no. You are exhausted from all the extra effort you have to put in. You go along with things, are easy to please, but not because you want to be like that, simply because you have no idea what you want to do. Emotions can swamp you and knock you down in an instant. These emotions are covering an underlying fear.

You feel ashamed of the person you are because you don't feel good enough. 

Even if no one else sees it, your effort is real. I see you and I hear you and I know you are enough.

What would it feel like for you to believe this too. You are enough just as you are now. 

You are not the only one that feels this way even if you might think you are. Many people carry this battle in silence.

You might not be able to see it yet, but I can sit with you and help you unlearn the shame you have carried and rediscover your self - one small step at a time.

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